would love to say it was my year. as self-assured as i might sound, it was definitely my year.
could go both ways,
my year being a year i felt things turned out rather great for me
my year being a year i put myself first before others, doing things for me, working my way through things to get what i want in terms of goals/achievements.
all i could remember was, 09 started out with me penning down my goals and a certain structure to how i should handle situations if things turn out the way i didnt want it to be.
the first half of 09 had such a fixed structure because i still had school and i knew what was going to happen for school, lectures tests labs exams breaks projects assignments and what nots.
it allowed me to prepare mentally to what i had expected.
but i remembered it was after my 20th birthday, that i was finally able to push aside all ego and eventually everything thatcrumbled in 2008 started to fall back in place.slowly.
slowly working things out which led us here, making it past 2009.
to cut the long story short, my best guy friend turned special friend turned whatever we call ourselves now came back into my life and i thought a certain dull dusty picture i had put away regained back its form and colours.
and im going to say this again, the idea of being suprised is of course when you least expect it. and most of the time he caught me off guard with his actions/words that i never thought he would do/say. you might have known him as someone else as a friend but.. this is the same guy we share as friends but i was given the greatest gift to find more than a friend in him. to be able to connect to a deeper level with the kind of talks that leave you going wow. the very same friend that cracks most of the table jokes is the same guy that told me he knew we could make it this far.
ive learnt alot about myself and ive learnt that even the ones we care and love friends family each have their own set of flaws we have to learn to embrace.
that the ones that i know would stick by me are not ones who wouldnt make mistakes but they are angels inspite of all the flaws they had.
ive learnt one important thing this year that life is fair and we should love it as it is.
more or less big or small yes or no, i should always be contented with what i have.
2010 would be a less structured year for me, i dont know what im in for this year because i think this year would be a year of perserverence , a mental hurdle for me.
:) what a good way to wrap up my 09 , finishing up my new book on the bed the whole day.
and remember asmida, breathe breathe and continue breathing :)
